super-a,

2011-06-05T17:02:00.004+08:00

all I know is that you're so nice.

you're th nicest thing I've seen.

I wish that we could give it a go,

see if we could b something?

I wish I was your favourite girl.

I wish you thought I was th reason you're in this world.

I wish I was your favourite smile.

I wish th way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out but you alws wanna know what I was about.

I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset.

I wish you'd never forget th look on my face when we first met.

I wish that you needed me.

I wish that w/o me, your heart wld break.

I wish that w/o me, you'd b spending th rest of your nights awake.

I wish that w/o me you couldn't eat.

I wish I was th last thing on your mind bfr you went to sleep.

basically, I wish that you loved me

kate nash

2011-06-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

I'M SO BORED. HELP

Strangers, again

2011-04-30T13:53:00.001+08:00

While we always hope for the best,

we often can't avoid the inevitable..

2011-04-19T06:27:00.002+08:00

Right now, there are ppl all over th world tht are just like you.

They're lonely.

They're missing somebody.

They're in love w someone they probably shldn't b in love w.

They wonder if there are people out there like them.

And right now, they're sitting here reading these words and I'm writting this so you dn't feel lonely anymr. ♥

2011-03-31T12:33:00.003+08:00

w/e I do is nvr gd enuf, and when it comes t studies, its nvr hard enuf.

w/e I study, doesnt get thru my thick skull.

maybe I'm jut not th study type,

ugh, who cares already.

I dn't give damn bout it alr.

I cn't study, I'm stupid,

fuck it

2011-03-22T01:33:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, th best way t stay close w th one you love is by being just a friend.

2011-03-14T00:47:00.002+08:00

Awwww Ari masuk NS, sedih pe sial!

I'LL MISS YOU LIKE A LOT.

Hope th 2 years will pass v quickly.

♥

2011-03-11T18:14:00.001+08:00

I do want you

2011-03-07T22:49:00.002+08:00

nah, it's not gna work out

2011-03-05T12:39:00.002+08:00

Watched My Ex: Haunted Lover ytd w Gwen, Wendy, Fifa and Mingming.

Not scary at all, z.

Byk kau punya No.1 Horror Hit! -.-

Bread Productions and Desserts and Petit Fours exams are next week.

& I havent studied at all.

Mayb I will, hours bfr th paper,

if I can find my notes.

2011-03-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

It ended right bfr it started, aw.

:( ..

2011-03-02T21:26:00.005+08:00

Watched No Strings Attached earlier on w Syuhaidah, whoop.

Thought it was all bout sex and I was like wtf but, greaaat show though, heheheh ;))

Look at my cock face, ikr hahahahaha.

Cn't smile properly due t th swelling, lol,

Had my lips pierced two days back.

Th swell's gna take a long time t heal, fuck that Grr.

Oh, wtf I finished doing th 2 products within 1 hr 15 mins during th Phase Test tday.

Let me pass pls~

Trg & Asian Sweets test tmrw.

& tmrw's gna b th last Asian Sweets lesson fr us,

I'm so gna miss Sir Alvin although he's alws v irritating, ;))

ok, I'm gna go revise a litte and turn in.

Gnight blogger.

2011-02-26T05:38:00.000+08:00

KAKI GEREKS ♥

2011-02-26T03:58:00.001+08:00

When we are hurting from losing a loved one,

it renders us t understand that taking care of love has value,

and is so imperative.

2011-02-20T11:03:00.003+08:00

Finally figured out you're all th same, alws comin up w some kinda story.

It's funny whn you think it's gna work out, you took me for granted.

Things happened fr a reason, you'll become a stronger person.

When life tears you up, then you'll understand.

It's never easy,

you should watch what you're saying.

Is this what you call love?

2011-02-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

Please tell me what's taking place,

cus I cn't seem t find a trace.

I'm startin t trip, I'm losin my grip,

and I'm in this thing alone.

It must've got erased,

2011-02-12T18:10:00.003+08:00

Hold myself on nights when th cold wind blows over,

unlike th times when you held me,

even a split of second held significance.

I want you t know th magnitude of how much I miss you,

using th sky as comparison wld still b inadequate t xplain.

I miss you so much,

where are you?

2011-02-07T20:43:00.003+08:00

Why does this feel so awkward?

We were just tables away...

Yet I didn't go towards you t even say hi,

whn I wanted t talk and meet you so much.

I cn't blv it..

Whenever I see you,

I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue.

Pretending everyth's okay and act like thr's nth's wrong.

2011-02-04T14:47:00.002+08:00

I wana go back t those days,

weeks aft Nov 17th,

bfr evryth started t change..

I miss you.

;((

2011-02-03T01:03:00.007+08:00

I nvr rly had you at all, I didn't think it wld hurt this much t lose you.

and tht wasn't wht I meant t do.

I didn't mean t leave you.

My heart's aching so badly.

babe, ily still.

but, I dn't wanna continue this cus Im afraid tht it wld be left hanging agn.

there, you just left another conv hanging,

not answering t my questions,

not explaining t me,

not telling me whats on your mind.

Ive been wanting t know so much.

do you know how much I've alws wanted t talk t you?

I doubt so.

cus you nvr did take th initiative t start a conv w me.

I just dnt knw what t say t you anymr nw,

sigh

I've voiced out my thoughts and feelings.

everyth's up t you now,

it's all in your hands.

:'(

2011-01-30T13:28:00.001+08:00

damn, it's no getting any better.

cough, cough, go away pls :(

2011-01-29T12:25:00.001+08:00

Crying all by yourself, living in a broken home

2011-01-25T20:50:00.003+08:00

I hate falling sick.

Mayb th reason I'm falling sick is cus I dn't smoke much now.

My throat is alr hurting,

whn I smoke, its gets worst.

If I dn't smoke, my flu gets worst.

Daamn, ;((

I've cut down a lot on fags recently.

Keep hving headaches and all kinds of aches!

Damn annoying I swear.

Guess getting fever soon if I dn't rest enuf or eat medi,

ugh, gna hv a hard time slping tonight...

2011-01-25T09:25:00.001+08:00

If this love is what we see it is,
I'm sure we will go far

2011-01-23T23:19:00.007+08:00

Those days used t be so hard t go through w/o textin or talking t you fr even a day.

Wasn't used t it and its as though sth's missing.

It's weird.

But now? - I dn't know.

I guess I just gta get used t it,

Whn you dint text me, I dint too.

Isn't cus I dint want t , but I alws thought you dn't want t ,

so I just let it be..

Rmb wht I said abt if you ever forget how much you mean t me,

I'd b here t remind you every time.

& you do mean a lot t me, still.

Just so you knw, tht I'm missing you every now and then.

Loves,

2011-01-23T01:26:00.002+08:00

Lets not put too much hope on this.

I know I'll nvr win if I nvr try.

Go w th flow, go w th flow.

Open up t me..

2011-01-22T00:41:00.003+08:00

you're first thing tht comes t my mind th moment I wake up,

th last thing on my mind bfr I go t bed.

You're alws on my mind.

But do you feel th same way as I do?

I dn't know..

2011-01-21T14:27:00.001+08:00

I used t anticipate fr holidays.

But now, it's so fucken boring.

I'd rather go t schl.

Time, hurry flyflyfly t Monday!

2011-01-20T09:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes whn we fight,

I think I maybe shld just let you leave and push you out of my life.

But I dn't decide cus I knw tht I just cn't survive w/o you.

and inside I knw I'll nvr let you go cus I knw you're th one.

and no matter how we fuss and fight, girl

you shld knw I just cn't stop loving you.

2011-01-06T02:57:00.001+08:00

♥, I miss you.

2011-01-02T14:49:00.008+08:00

2010 ended w no fireworks nor parties, but just Eunice Lee and tears.

Let's hope 2011 will be a better year.

It's th second day of 2011 today.

I hope fr th best in everyth.

8 more days till schl reopens, I cn't wait.

cus I'm sick and tired of rotting at home alone.

Gng through so much now.

Frankly speaking, Im missing someone so much right now.

It feels so sucky not being able t talk t your loved one fr weeks,

whn minutes feels like hours, hours feels like days, days feels like weeks and weeks feels like months t you.

But, oh well, let's just go w th flow.

These are just obstacles I hv t overcome.

Maybe it's just a test.

Shan't b despair and wn't lose hope.

Put my trust in Allah and pray.

He's never far away.

When you're in love, jealousy isn't th only feeling you dn't wish t feel,

negligence is also sth you wldn't want t feel.

2010-11-19T11:08:00.001+08:00

It's time t move on.

2010-10-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Have you figured it out yet?

2010-10-12T21:05:00.003+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathin.
Her best days will be some of my worst.
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleepin.
What am I supposed t do whn th best part of me was always you?
and what am I supposed t say whn I'm all choked up and you're okay?
You took your suitcase an I took th blame.
Now I'm tryina make sense of what little remains,
cus you left me w no love and no love t my name.
They say bad things happens fr a reason.
But no wise words gna stop th bleedin',
cus she's moved on and I'm still grieving.
I'm falling t pieces, yeah

2010-10-11T19:51:00.004+08:00

Its been 5 months since I've last shot.
Dn't knw whthr am still as good as th past.
Kinda miss shooting.
I miss my gun.
I miss being in th range.
I wana shoot, but I cn't.
Wana feel those feelings whn I shot a bulls eye.
Wana feel those feelings whn I got an average of over 380+- ,
Shooting used to be my everyth,
being part of th nationals was my dream.
I was almost reachin fr it whn stuffs happened and I had to,
eventually give it up.
:(

2010-10-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

I LOVELOVELOVE THEM, (L)

2010-10-07T11:22:00.000+08:00

No point studying so hard whn your attendance is like shit.
Your GPA is still gna b low.

2010-10-06T00:14:00.001+08:00

4th October 2010,

I cn't blv I fell so deep..

2010-10-01T01:23:00.001+08:00

Miss you,

2010-10-01T00:13:00.005+08:00

Pool & Town w Eileen, Rebecca, Shi Jie, Terrence, Benson & Melissa.

Fun.

2010-09-28T23:24:00.001+08:00

I kinda miss lessons in schl,

2010-09-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

Suddenly received MMS from Xiaobai, LOL.
Me eating Haagen Dazs at work, hahahahhahahhaha

2010-09-27T14:49:00.005+08:00

F1 is over!
No more standing fr mre thn 12 hours.
No more stealing food/chocs to eat.
No more smuggling of Haagen Dazs Ice Cream & Coke into th Walk-in Chiller to eat them with othr Chefs.
No more sucky dinner provided by them.
Met manymany new friends thr, :D

2010-09-23T01:09:00.001+08:00

First day of work @ Shangri-la Hotel.
Tired ttfm.

2010-09-20T02:19:00.006+08:00

Hv been watching Skins fr th past few days on th net.

Kathryn Prescott is fucking, adiskhfnkjn!@^&* man.
She's so preeeeeeeeetyyyyyyyyyyyy,
Love her ttm, ha. :D

and I came across this, :O

Skins: The Movie' Scheduled For A 2011 Release

the sex, drink and drug-fuelled drama that depicts teenage life as it often is rather than how parents imagine it, is to migrate to the big screen. After a year of speculation about the E4 show, producers today confirmed that shooting would begin in September on a film to be released in summer 2011. Steve Christian, executive producer on the film and chair of the film finance and distribution company CinemaNX, said the show – which few could accuse of presenting a sanitised picture of adolescence – was perfect for the big screen. But he added: “The biggest critics of Skins are the Skins fans so it’s going to be a big challenge. The programme has this incredible fanbase despite all the characters changing.” Skins has grown in popularity with more than 1.5 million people tuning in to the start of the recent fourth series. Although its target audience is teenagers, it has become something of a guilty pleasure for curious viewers far older. “Look, I’m a middled aged bloke with two kids, I should hate Skins but I absolutely love it,” said Christian. “And then I talk to my mates, people not in the film industry, and it’s the same thing – they watch it and they love it and it’s all down to the quality of the production.” The show’s first two series featured actors such as Dev Patel, who went on to Slumdog Millionaire, and Nicholas Hoult, who starred in last year’s A Single Man. Because the show is set in a sixth form, the teenage actors were all changed for the third and fourth series and the same thing will happen for series five and six, which have already been commissioned. Christian said the intention was to bring back characters from the first four series, but there would also be new characters. The script is being written by Jack Thorne, a regular Skins writer working with the show’s creator Bryan Elsley, and another regular, Charles Martin, will direct.

Now THIS is fantastic news!! Not only will as many original Skins characters be appearing in this film (they better get Nicholas Hoult and Dev Patel) but having the show’s creator involved will ensure the movie will rule.

- I so want to watch it! D:
But I dk if its available in sg.
:(
someone rip it and upload it on Youtube or smth please~

2010-09-19T12:29:00.000+08:00

I blv in karma.

2010-09-18T11:00:00.003+08:00

overdue photos from last Sunday's study session w classmates, 12/09/2010.
it looks as thou we took more photos thn studying.
but I did study! look at my notes below my earpiece. Hahahhaa.

2010-09-17T10:37:00.001+08:00

whats w all those tags from ppl IDK .___.

2010-09-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

why are you back to your old, cold you agn?

2010-09-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

lunch @ bugis and kbox @ Cine aft schl tday w th usual ppl, :)

exams ended today.

holiday starts tomorrow.

training at Shangri-la Hotel on Monday.

cn't wait t work, I want money! $_$

rollerblading w Joyah tmrw @ ecp.

so anticipating!

it's been so long since I last skated and see Joyah fall, :D

2010-09-15T21:49:00.002+08:00

just came bk from studying, tired ttm.
not finished w it yet, headed hme cus wasn't feelin well.
my throat rly cmi alr, and headache.
gr, I still hv t conti thou!
sigh! :(
Shangri-la Hotel tmrw fr briefing.
tmrw's th last paper,gdluck all.
shall conti studyin nw,

2010-09-13T22:57:00.004+08:00

Hv been studying, studying fr exams lately.
Had efc earlier on, am confident I can pass.
Haha!
Tmrw hving ibsc, gdluck ppl.
Hope it'll be an easy one. >;/
Oh, oh, gna work @ Shangrila Hotel nxt wk during hols in th kitchen.
$10/hr sia! :D woohoo.

2010-09-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

When will all of this shits end?
Will this house ever be a home?

2010-09-08T11:10:00.002+08:00

I've disappointed my lecturers cus of my attendance, grades, character and attitude.
I'm sorry but thr's just so mny things on my mind,
and it's just too much.
Fr me take it all out alone, fr me to handle it all alone.
Family probs kp increasing.
Studies, cmi.
All I gta say now is, my life sucks big time.

2010-09-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

The day we fell apart

2010-09-02T23:49:00.004+08:00

I wana forget you and move on so badly.
But sth's just holding me back.
I guess I love you, still.
I'll pretend I'm okay w it all,
act like there's nth wrong.
I'm lying, they know it.
Why wn't all this just go away?

2010-09-01T21:52:00.002+08:00

CMBK TEST IS LESS THN 13 HOURSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
:(

2010-08-29T12:20:00.003+08:00

Oh my love, you were th only one.
Now you're gone and I'm alone.
All my friends, they said, "What's done is done."
I pretend, but deep inside I know.
If I shld love agn, if I find someone new.
It wld be made-blv.
For in my heart, it wld be you.
and thou' I hold her close,
and want her now and then,
I'll still be loving you, if I shld love agn.

All day long, I keep remembering you.
All th nights, I think of you.
I'll get by
But this, I swear it's true.

2010-08-16T04:42:00.000+08:00

Insomniac,

2010-08-16T00:48:00.005+08:00

I wish tht I had nvr met you.
Thn thr wld be no need t impress you.
No need t want you.
No need fr loving you.
No need fr crying over you.
No need fr heartbreaks.
No need fr pain or tears.
No need fr forgotten promises.
No need fr crying myself t sleep.
No need, fr everyth you've done tht made me feel like absolutely nth.

But then agn, I'm glad I did met you.
Cus you were th one who always asked me if anyth was wrong.
You were th one who loved me fr me.
Th one who cared when everyone else didn't.
Th one who listened.
You were th one whom I told secrets to, whom I confide in.
Th one who did things, just fr me..

It doesn't make sense t let go of sth tht you've wanted fr so long,
but it doesn't make sense t hold on whn nth's thr.

2010-08-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of breathing,
tired of feeling,
tired of trying,
tired of loving,
tired of searching,
tired of looking at th past fr meaning..
But, I'm not tired of you..

2010-08-14T00:20:00.001+08:00

You said you love me,
' said you'll nvr leave me.
Mayb I just heard you wrong.

2010-08-13T07:42:00.000+08:00

I tried t stop missing you.

2010-08-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

What happened t those promises made?
Are promises really meant t be broken?

2010-08-12T10:04:00.003+08:00

Love of my life,
you've hurt me.
You've broken my heart and now leave me.
Love of my life,
dn't leave me.
You've stolen my heart and now desert me.
When I grow older,
I will still be there by your side t remind you,
how I still love you, I still love you..

Bring it back..
Dn't take it away from me.
Cus you dn't know, what it means to me..

2010-08-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

Thanks fr everything.
You're still right here in my heart,
and I'll still be there fr you.
Fr th last time, Happy advanced 1 Month, in 1 and a half hours' time,
and fr th last time, I love you.

2010-08-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

fml

2010-08-10T18:50:00.001+08:00

Whats this supposed to mean?

2010-08-10T09:38:00.002+08:00

Its been 11 days since you went t Korea.
Tmrw's th 11th alr, our 1st Month, :(
Sorry fr everyth.
Imissyou and Iloveyou lots, b.
I really do.

2010-08-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

So afraid t sleep at night,
phobia of hving dreams.
Dreams are really th opposite of reality.

2010-08-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

Walau. So long nvr talk t girlf alr. :(
Miss her t th fucking max luh, :((((
sigh. I feel super tired + difficulty in breathing, tsk annoying.
Gna sleep soon.
Tmrw family gathering @ Clementi, :/
Another long day, sighhhh.
Babyyyyyyy hope you'll cme online soon, :(
Miss you.

357 days left.

2010-08-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

Nth much happened today.
Summary of today,
Schl, Lot1, rockclimbing, home.
Nth much t post bout anw.
Just miss my girlf, :(
sighhhhhhhh.

358 days left...

2010-08-05T23:37:00.003+08:00

Day 6, 359 days left...
In abt 10 mins time, it wld be day 7 and 358 days left.
Damn, I miss you sm love.
Dint talk t ya tday, nt sure bt tmrw.
I'll try yeah, baby, :)
Tty soon cus I srsly miss you like mad, :((((
Today skipped EFC cus was too tired t go t schl.
So I went fr Cake Mixing only.
Mr Lau has been complaining bout my changed attitude recently,sighhh.
I dint even realised it changed, even friends agreed w Mr Lau.
Sorry people, :( nvm.
Keep forgetting t photo copy my passport, D: tsk.
I'm gg Shanghai fr 5d4n nxt nxt wk, YAY. :D
But idk whether I can talk t baby during tht 5 days?
Hope hotel will hv wifi, cus we've t fucking pay 1.5k fr tht pathetic 5days, -_-
No wifi in hotel, idk what t say alr. Zzzz
Aft schl went hme and then out agn t Timah fr Pool w Zaff, :D
hv been pool-ing much these days, :o
Rock Climbing trg tmrw at 3pm, till idk what time.
Hope I'll be bk early enuf so I cn talk t my love, (L)
Ok, shall end here.
Gna turn in soon, goodnighttttttttt.

I'd do w/e it takes,

2010-08-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

Buttercream Cake turned out like shit!
-_- From 9 inch cake changed to, a small cake tht's smaller thn my palm?
Which is so fucking difficult to ice. ZZZZZZZZZZ.
And soo it turned out like shit.
Taste = Not bad.
Icing = FAIL -_-
Ate a few spoons then threw it all away. haha! -_-
Aft practical went t register lockers and ate lunch at Matrix~
Slacked w Fara awhile and then left fr Bugis and met Gwen there.
Bought new bracelets, new cig box, new box of cig and shorts, (Y)
Walk, walk, walk and then headed home.

Day 5, 360 days left.

2010-08-03T19:58:00.005+08:00

Day 4, 361 days left.
Miss Baby to the fucking max, D:
Talked t baby fr 43 mins and 43 secs only today!
NO I DID NOT TIME, I was looking through our chatlog and saw th time.
:(((((
How saddening, not even 44mins -_-
GRRR, I came online too late. Fuck myself -'-
Summary of what happened today.
CakeMixing Demo, doing buttercream cake tmrw.
Then had efc aft brk. BORING AS USUAL.
Then aft efc slacked and guitar-ed w Putra and Gwen.
Went t meet dad at his office today and aft that went his house and then home.
Damn, my whole body's aching like mad :(
Shall end my post here.

I LOVE LYDIAKWON(L)

2010-08-02T19:08:00.003+08:00

Today had hardcore sports&wellness.
Ran two rounds arnd field, didn't stop at all (Y)
Then did some stretchings, pushups and situps, suicide and stupid basketball tht made me fall till I bled, -_-
Then had efc aft break, was boring.
Queensway and pool aft tht at Timah.
Talking t Baby now. (L)
I miss her sm.

Day 3,
362 days left...
When you're in love, nth else matters.

2010-08-01T10:38:00.003+08:00

Day 2 w/o baby.
Awwwww, it's not getting any better.
But 2 days passed so fast.
Only 363 days left.
Hope 363 days will pass this fast, : /
Talked t Baby ytd in th aftnoon fr awhile.
And, yeah. Thats all. Only in th aftnoon.
Damn I miss you like mad, baby.
I gta keep myself occupied and super busy, not rot at hme everyday,
in order not t think so much >:/
But I just dn't hv th mood t do anything.
Today's August already.
25 days t my birthday.
19 days t Shanghai.
9 days t fasting month.
1 week left fr YOG Holidays.
Gna workworkwork like mad, sigh
Time please fly fast like srsly..

2010-07-31T09:35:00.003+08:00

Day 1, w/o you here w me. 364 days left...

sigh, Baby, you must be in Korea already right now, sound aslp.
Must be tired sitting on th airplane fr approx 8 hrs +-,
slping in th airplane w/o a proper bed. :' (
When you walked into th Departure Hall at 9.15pm last night,
I felt a huge stab on my heart, sigh.
I just cn't imagine you've gone t Korea, fr 1 year.
I just cn't imagine life w/o you.
I just cn't help feeling sad waking up in th morning not seeing your goodmorning texts.
Baby, I just miss you so much. :' (
sigh, wherever you are, be it near or far, I believe tht my heart still goes on.
You're right here in my heart, only you..
I love you so much baby,

2010-07-29T03:25:00.002+08:00

It's 3.30am right now and I'm not aslp yet. Zz.
Hope I can make it fr schl later on?..
Made dunno what cake during Practical, D:
Wasnt really concentrating while baking.
Idk what was I thinking abt.
I dn't even know what was on my mind?
Never mixed sponge mix properly.
Right arm was burnt by oven.
Scratched by metal scraper on right palm.
Accidentally dropped eggs on th floor, ._.
Was super slow, super tired super weak.
Haiiiiiz, fuck it.
Baby's flying off tomorrow, sigh.
Sad luh. :(

Baby, I'll miss you so much. :((
Idk what I'll do/become while you're away.
I just cn't imagine life w/o you here w me.
Life wld be so different w/o you, it wld be so empty..
Phone wld be so silent w/o your texts..
Everything will just be different, sigh.
Baby, I promise you tht my love fr you will nvr fade.
I'll wait fr you t be back.
"I hope you'll keep me in your heart just like I will."
That sentence was from you.
Dn't worry love, you'll be here in my heart, always.

2010-07-24T14:34:00.003+08:00

Girl, I'm in love w you.
At times we get sick of love.
It seems like we argue everyday.
I know I misbehaved and you made your mistakes.
We both still got room left t grow.
and thou love sometimes hurt,
I still put you first,
and we'll make this thing work.
This ain't a movie, no fairytale conclusion.
It gets more confusing.
Sometimes its heaven sent,
then we head back t hell agn.
We rise and we fall,
and we just feel like walking away.
As our love advances, we take second chances.
Thou it's not fantasy,
I still want you t stay.
Maybe we'll live and learn.
Maybe we'll crash and burn.
Maybe you'll stay.
Maybe you'll leave.
Maybe you'll return.
Maybe another fight.
Maybe we wn't survive.
But maybe we'll grow.
We never know baby,
We're just ordinary people.

2010-07-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiii I finally hv th feeling t post. Hahahhha.
Yesterday made Strawberry Shortcake during Practical.
It turned out well. Yayyyy fr me:D
Today was late fr cake mixing demo agn. :(
When we walked into class,
we were like, "Sorry Ma'am."
Ma'am was like, "Everytime say sorry, I numb already."
-________- zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Hahhahha, tmrw making Banana Cake and two spongecakes! :o
Hope it'll be a successful one. :x
Ohhhhhhh yesterday met girlfriendddd, (L) :D
but fr awhile only, :(
Met her outside schl today too, hohoho.
Sent her home and had dinner w Cheryl. :D
Lunch tmrw w girlfriend, yayyyyyyy.

woohoo, I loveeeeee Lydiaaaaaa Kwonnnnnnnnn~ (L)
:D

2010-07-11T22:41:00.009+08:00

Lydia Kwon, (L)

I love you fr giving your heart t me and trusting me w all your pride.

I love you fr wanting me and needing me by your side.
I love you fr all th emotions I never knew I had.

I love you fr making me smile when I'm feeling sad.

I love you fr your thoughts of me when I'm always on your mind.

I love you fr finding that part of me I thought I'd never find.

I love you fr th way you are and for how you make me feel.

But most of all, I love you cus you're mine fr real.

11th July 2010,10:05pm,

ily,

2010-07-10T15:39:00.005+08:00

Facebook is sucha bitch, LOL.

I'm not a hypocrite ok.

2010-07-07T16:18:00.001+08:00

Tried t take a picture of love.
Didn't think I'd miss her that much.

2010-07-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

I dn't know how you do wht you do,
I'm so in love w you...

2010-07-03T00:19:00.005+08:00

I'm so bored right now~
Nobody t talk t alr, lolol.
Tmrw gg bpp w Pearlyn t study? LOL.
Mayb fr her, I'll just slack.
Hahahehehoho.
But will be gg hme late at night fr sure!
Gahhhhhhhhhh I still dk what t wear.
It's just bpp?
I think shall just wear fbt and shirt, lol.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, I'm starving :((
Skipped dinner agn.
I'm hungry but I can survive on youuuu~
(Heal me, I'm heart sick, School of Rock soundtrack) LOL
OMG I'M SRSLY FUCKING BORED.
Shall find sth t entertain me, D:

I didn't mean t get so close and share what we did.
I didn't mean t fall in love, but I did.. (L)

2010-06-28T09:31:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed t b on my way t wsss now.
But I'm still Home, on my bed. -.- zzz
Thght tht I cld take pub trnsport t schl.
I'm walkin like shit, my legs are aching like OMG.
From th calves all th way dwn t my ankles.
Move a muscle, and it hurts like lajgsnmahd,.
Dk how am I gna walk ltr. I'd b lookin like an idiot.
So I guess I'll b cabbing t schl, agn. :l
I've been wastin money a lot on cabs lately, ._.
Ok whatever. I'm hungry.
Gna ransack my kitchen fr food now,

2010-06-27T11:57:00.002+08:00

NEW LOVE, (L)

Today's sunday!

Tomorrow's monday!

Yesterday was saturday!

Lunch w Zul and Pig ltr on at bpp.

Assisting coach w A/R Shooters tmrw, well, th whole week,

Yesterday sucked big time.

My legs are aching aft all th running, :(

I HATE BANGALAS, GO BACK BANGLADESH LA FUCK.

Ok.

Next week will be my last week of schl holidays.

AWWWW,BORING. :(

Well, I kinda miss schl.

Those roleplayings and mock tests during Eff Comm.

Those baking during practical.

Those captainball, floorball, softball, badminton and some weird stretchings during Sport&Wellness.

Those excursions t weirdweird places such as Quail Farm, ._.

Byebye Clmenti, hello CCK! :D

Cn't wait t see th new campus as I didnt go fr th orientation :x

Hope ther'll be a bigger and nicer kitchen fr us! :o YAY.

Class BBQ this Tues, @ ECP.

Dn't know whether I'll b gg, I guess not.

Dw t get tempted by some stuffs, :o

And I hv assisting t do th next mornin,

afraid I cn't wake up?

Or will b late?

Then, Coach will f me.

Sorry guys~ D:

See ya when schl reopens!

Ok, I shall stop here.

Wsss @ 10am tmrw!

Zzzzzz

2010-06-22T19:22:00.000+08:00

Tell me why.

2010-06-16T18:47:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh I'm so bored! :(((((
Just realised tht my blog is super plain,hahas.
No photos, no nothing. D:
STUPID PHONE CN'T UPLOAD, ZZ.
Oh anyway! I guess I wn't be shooting anymore?
Or only fr th time being. Idk?
My recent score in NUSIS 2010 sucked big time.
To my team mates,
I'm sorry tht I pulled th team down.
Thou we won 2nd position,
My score was unacceptable.
Idk whatwent wrong?
Guess it was my back ache. :(
Idk hw t face people from HTNS alr.
AAHHHHH, guess th only way is just t, run away.
Well, I'll be packin my shooting gears soon and leaving.
But I'll still be assisting Coach in th A/R @ wsss during my holidays,
Which is now till 8th of July.
Next Sat, helping wsss t choose students through DSA using shooting.
$_$ :D!
Wsss agn tmrw fr trg.
Rifle Shooters please train hard fr this coming Dunman High Shoot. :(
You can do it! :))

2010-06-16T04:40:00.005+08:00

Finally let go.
Of someone that's nt worth holdin on to.
- I think I'm fallin fr you, :o
But I'm feelin kinda scared,
cus I'm fallin in love w you. :(
I dw t give my heart t someone new.
I've been there bfore,
and it's my heart she tore in two.
I dw t give you my heart,
cus I'm afraid of what will happen,
and th things tht you'll do.
Can somebody please stop me from falling fr this girl?
I dw t go through love agn,
as I always end up, always getting hurt. :((

2010-06-09T19:16:00.002+08:00

Omg, now then I realise tht my previous posts are fucking emo. LOL.
Had eff comm exam earlier on.
Confident tht I can pass, muahaha.
Then headed to plaza to meet people.
Met Lydia Kwon, hahahhas.
SHE WAS SUPER SHY TILL SHE BLUSHED WHEN SHE SAW ME.
I felt so honoured, cus she said she only feel shy when she meets me. -.-
Hahahhahhas.
You shld be happy okay you shygirl! Hahahahhas!
Okayyyy.
Tomorrow hving Pastry basics exam, omg.
I havent studied a thing bout it.
Gahhhhhh.
Lets hope it'll be an easy paper? :))
My event in NUSIS is this Sat, hope I'll shoot well. :(
I've trained so hard, find time fr trg no matter how packed my schedule is.
Wish me goodluck people!~ :D
Tomorrow heading to Yishun aft exam to support juniors.
Goodluck shooters, do your best! :D
Friday no schooooooooool :D:D
Sat maybe watching movie :D:D:D
Sunday , SENTOSA :D:D:D:D:D:D:
Monday onwards... HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYY!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
lmao.
omg, I'm so bored.
Waiting fr that shygirl to come online.
blablablablablabla.
end here byebyebyebye
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd

2010-06-05T10:20:00.001+08:00

You're always on my mind.
I think of you every night bfore I head to bed,
Every morning th moment I'm up.
I'm tryin t think of sth else,
To keep me from thinkin of you,
But it's nt workin out cus you're all thts on my mind.
I'm tryin my best t let go of you, girl
It hurts so badly, :(
I'm aware of what you feel fr me.
I'm not th one your heart is missing,
sigh, thou you and I are impossible,
I still want you to be happy.
I'm sacrificing my happiness,
for yours, :((
You hv my blessings babe.
:(((
-you still glow in my heart,

2010-06-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
It's so obvious,
that I like you.

Sigh, :((

2010-05-18T18:57:00.001+08:00

Why does everything seems so wrong?
sigh.

2010-05-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

I try to deal it, but it don't make sense.
I can't believe this is happening.
All I know is that I'm missing you,
I care bout nothing else but you.
Two steps I'm losing it, one more step I disconnect.
Feels like I might as well be dead.

2010-05-06T20:39:00.003+08:00

Went to HomeTeamNS w Samson ytd t ask Nigel bout NUS Shoot.
He'll try to put me in, yay!
There's still like 5 more competitions fr this year!
But... Not all are open to clubs, like why siah! :(
Like...

NJC SHOOT

HOMETEAMNS SHOOT

Grrr, limited competitions.

I can only depend on monthly shoots now.

Ohmygodzz

It means I only hv like 3 competitions a year, to participate..

._____________.

Oh never mind!

No point talkin bout it alr, zz.

YAY PRACTICAL TOMORROW!

Gna bake Cream puffs and Eclairs! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Class Test next week.

Phase Test comin in 3 weeks time.

Gta study hard! Gta train hard! :D

Secondary school range will be open on th 14th of May aft Exams.

I shall come back and train whenever I'm free:D

Currently on mornin shift, which ends at 1pm every Fri,

which means I can train! :DD

But still figuring out how my luggage's gna go to range.

I cn't possibly bring it to school. -_-

Oh, oh and my CA is gna help me arrange Shooting as my CCA. YAY AGAIN! :D

Ms Tan rocks my socks whoo.

Okay I shld stop this now am getting so high, z.

Shall post another time!

Gna praypraypray fr th best!

2010-05-02T10:08:00.000+08:00

I just woke up.
I'm bored and hungry(again-.- I've been eating a lot these days).
There's nth to do and there's nth to eat. Grr.
Anyways, am gg out ltr t hunt fr my luggage.
It's fr my shooting equiptments.
Die, die, hv t be red, hahaaaa.
Well I haven't been trg fr a month now,
Ever since I started school.
I dn't hv th time
Schl ends aft 530pm almost everyday..
Sucks big time!
But it's worth it, :D
I hope I'll get t participate in this comin DHIS&NUS shoot 2010. :D
Gna contact Nigel soon!:D
And find time to go back t wsss and train,
Exams are comin in two weeks time, omg that's fast.
Gna start mugging soon(I'll try my best to!)
OKay shall stop here, it's 10 in the morning!
Gta wake some businessman up! Lmao.
Shall post another time, :D

2010-04-24T18:03:00.008+08:00

Its been so long since I last posted.
Life's been okay all the while.
Started school, third week coming already!
Time flies! Wow! -.-
School is, ofcos, A-W-E-S-O-M-E, with awesome bunch of ppl, no matter how big our age gaps are! lmao.
We hv our very own "U.P", hahhahha.
Some of the photos in school, :D

Cn't wait t go t school!
School rocks my smelly socks, whooooooooo!~

2010-04-08T20:46:00.002+08:00

I often close my eyes, and I can see you smile.
You reach out fr my hand and I'm woken from my dream.
I've never had yr love and I never will.
And every night I'd lie awake, thinking maybe you'd love me like how I've always loved you.
But how can you love me like how I love you when you cn't even look straight in my eyes?
I see you holding me but then you disappear.
All tht's left of you is just a memory.
I dn't know what t do but I can feel it too.
And it just hurts so much t know tht I cn't do a thing.
And deep down my heart,
Somehow I just know,
Tht no matter what, I'll always love you..